I love words.
I'm a writer and words are a craft I dive into often as a skill-set. More than that though, truly I love words. The power to teach, describe, explain, all encased in random letters swiftly placed together into thoughts. One of my favorite words that is almost never used is in its core form is WHELMED.
To reference the dictionary the term Whelmed is described as a transitive verb meaning to cover or engulf completely. Sounds awful. However when used differently WHELM can be defined as a rush or overcoming of thought or feeling or as is most often used, to be overwhelmed
I was pondering this one this morning as my Facebook memory status from this day 5 years ago ended with the line "....YEESH so much big stuff at once, the Lord does like to push my boundaries!"
I'm not sure as to the WHY but a theme of my life could be perfectly wrapped up in the word, whelmed. So many occasions whereby multiple life events converged at one time creating a perfect storm of stress and chaos and worry. And lest you think me overly dramatic, I'll bullet point a few high Points for you:
- Not just a newly wed.... how about a newlywed with a cross country move and a new job.
- Not just a 1st time mother.....a 1st time mother with a six week old baby, a brand new book contract, and a 2 week notice of a job change with yet another cross country move.
- Not just newborn twins....a 20 month old and newborn twins and one of them needs surgery.
- Not just MAJOR surgery..... a major surgery on the heels of your 2 yr olds Type 1 diabetes diagnosis and, a three week notice of yet ANOTHER cross country move.
I feel confident when I say, Lord.... I've been WHELMED!
I've been drowning in worries and suffocating in stress. I've been blindsided by life and sucker punched by circumstances far beyond my control. I have had times that I truly believed I would break under the weight of it all. Not unlike David in the book of Psalms who wrote
"Deeper and deeper I sink into the mire; I can’t find a foothold.
I am in deep water,
and the floods overwhelm me." 69:2
But now, given the eyes of retrospect I can confidently say that I very clearly did not drown. Not then. Not once. Not ever.
For each and every time my life turned into a storm of disastrous proportion, Gods hand was clearly upon me. He placed my steps in the dark when I could not see my next move. He provided and covered us in ways I could not have prepared. God used his word, his praise music, even the mundane life things like a hidden piece of Toilet Paper! God reached me whenever He could in whatever way I needed for sustaining and life-giving oxygen.
In all truth while I do not always understand the why, I can firmly and with great confidence exclaim that I SURVIVED! Whatever the storm, whatever the trial, whatever the need, God was there and provided in full. And as such I can now boast with confidence much like David:
Psalm 34: 17-22
17 The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles.
18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.
19 The righteous person faces many troubles,
but the Lord comes to the rescue each time.
20 For the Lord protects the bones of the righteous; not one of them is broken!
21 Calamity will surely destroy the wicked,
and those who hate the righteous will be punished.
22 But the Lord will redeem those who serve him. No one who takes refuge in him will be condemned.
Be Blessed in whatever trial you are in.... GODS GOT YOU!